my newest role….

mother.

(woah…)

It’s incredible, exciting, challenging, exhausting, hard, and wonderful all at the same time. And on top of it all it’s demanding.

I took my 12 weeks off from the day-job so I could focus on this tiny new human being that I created. We got to know each other, we played, we tried to figure out a schedule (haha), we tried to get enough sleep to not resemble zombies all of the time, we watched a ton of day-time tv, I was lucky if I had enough time to myself got a shower every other day much less anything else, and I wish it could have been longer. So time has been hard to come by for the past 3 months. I somehow managed to have a booth at the Belmont street fair when she was 5 weeks old (major kudos to the hubster for helping me pull that off). I think she got more attention than anything I was selling, but she is pretty freaking cute so I totally understand.

But my 12 weeks have run out and life is expensive, even more so with a child, and so I must return to the world of the working. Which means even less time. On weekdays I usually only get about 3 hours with her after work, before bed time so I try to squeeze in all the cuddles and giggles and playtime and loving I can. I mean I have a 3 month old and I miss her… working sorta sucks. But c’est la vie… We make it work.

My point here is that I have very little time for the things that I need to get done, much less the things I want to do… like painting, and making jewelry, and tending to my etsy shop… blogging.  So my plan (before our little girl joined us) was that I would just re-up the new years goals that I set for myself here last year, this year. That seemed realistic… until it became November and New Years is only two short months away and wholey cow where has the time gone!?

But no, I can do this. They were simple goals. I just need to pace myself, and realize that I am now doing it for someone else too. This little girl needs a role model who pursues her dreams, no matter how hard they may be.

Boy, I am rambly when I do get a chance… clearly I need to get back here regularly. So look for it, new years I will try this again. (try… I make no promises these days.)

Oh, and in case you were curious, here she is in all her heart melting adorableness, holding Daddy’s hand.

Adorable, no?

Adorable, no?

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